I tell myself I'm excited.
I tell myself I'm ready.
I tell myself it's now or never.
My heart tells me I'm devasted.
My heart tells me I'm anything but ready.
My heart tells me to rebel
against everything I believe to believe in.
I kick, scream, fight.
for the freedom to do as i please.
My heart agrees with my actions.
I was taught to think with my head, not my heart.
"Your heart does not k n o w what's best for you. Your heart only f e e l s what's best for you."
Am I wrong to be perfectly fine with that?
I have no choice.
I will cover up.
I will do what's "best".
I will follow my mother's orders.
I will follow God's orders.
I will do what's best.
Everything I believe to believe in,
is what's best.